The hard work and detail-oriented planning you have done lately is really starting to pay off, Shannon. The key today is to maintain your sensitivity and look to where you can be of service to others. The nurturing side of you is feeling the need to express itself in a helpful manner. Follow your heart and be respectful of your emotions. The thing you need to be most aware of is to not overextend yourself too much.
First, they pegged me on the detail-oriented...I'm a bitch about details. You have to have details in order to do things. Vague mumblings are not helpful nor acceptable. I want to know what the plan is.
Second, I don't think I'll maintain my sensitivity since I don't really have that. Not to mention that I don't want to be of service to others. I'm in it for me... OK, I take that back. The whole point of my 12-step program is to be of maximum service to God and others. That is what the big book tries to teach up. So I have to walk through the day, holding out my hand.
Third, the nurturing side needs to express itself? I might be sensitive but I most definitely am not nurturing. Not by any stretch of the imagination. I actually will recoil when asked to be loving and kind. Most people seem to sense this and so I'm not really asked to nurture anyone. I can shake a hand and sometimes hug but I will not be sitting at your bedside when you're sick...mopping your brow...
Fourth, respectful of my emotions? I don't think that's going to happen. I don't respect your emotions...why respect mine. I think it's more that I don't trust emotions. Emotions happen without warning and are rarely the same each time. And how do you deal with emotions? I didn't get a cheat sheet with my sobriety and I doubt I'll be able to pick one up at Borders.
Fifth, do not overexert yourself....I am kind of two different people here. I will overexert myself when it's something I feel strongly about. But what happens most of the time is that I'll start something and then quickly get bored, tired or fed up and then I'll just half ass it. Really, I like to half ass half ass...I used to be gunho about things. I'd step in and try to solve the problems of everyone involved. I wanted to fix you. I definitely overexerted myself but I lived off that. It was a "high" that I would get for being the savior.
Now, I just want to be mediocre I just want to do the bare minimum. I don't ask for the hard assignments. I don't spend hours each night, working on projects. I don't run around and try to run the whole shebang. I just want to go home, read a little, maybe watch a movie and work on craft projects.
The lesson of this horoscope post is this...this sensitiveless, nonnurturing, unemotional, detail orientated person will try harder to be more sensitive of others, initiate more nurturing interactions, start expressing my emotions and wade less in the details; give of my time and talents.
But then I think people would have a hard time with a newer, softer Shannon. Guess I have to work on my PR.
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