Bleh

Work is going better but that's because I've stopped wishing it was different and just working at what I have the ability to change.  I think I'm going to be OK at work but I also need to make sure everyone else knows that.  But nothing fantastic about it.  Just maintaining...


Home life is OK. I'm still getting used to a roommate. Only been 3 months so I'm learning.  I spend a lot of time in my room because I just don't want to watch as much TV as she does.  Plus I have projects to work on that take more of my time and its easier to be somewhere a little quieter.  We had one knock down drag out and that was because of me. I walking into the conversation mad about it and I took it out on her.  We're still tip toeing around each other for that.  I "won" but at what cost?  So....just maintaining.

Money is MUCH worse. My student loan kicked in and I can't get it to "turn off". So I am paying a lot of money I don't really have to do this. I need to do some calling and I need to work with them to get it lowered at least....but, I'm maintaining (barely)

My desire to lose weight hasn't diminished but my willingness had. The last week (which is never a determining factor for me) has me doing all the right things. Walking every day, cutting WAY back on soda and eating regular, healthy meals. I've lost 7 pounds but since I'm never consistent, this could go away.  So I'll say I'm maintaining for now.  Give me another 2 weeks and I'll start talking.

Willow is probably the only thing that I feel I am excelling at.  Every day we get closer and she starts to trust me more. I actually got her on her back the other day so I could rub her belly.  Lasted for all of 20 seconds but it was there....We're definitely bonding. Holding on to maintaining because I think we're almost excelling.

Christmas is 54 days away. I'm putting up my tree this weekend.  I know, I know...it's too early but I'm a rebel. I like to go against what others do.  So I will probably put it up and just listen to Christmas music until New Years Eve...I love this time of the year. Never did before, felt it was too much pressure to get the right gift and have the perfect tree.  Now, I have a fake tree that leans to the left and ornaments that don't match. Still try to match and look perfect but the overall effect is that I love watching the lights stay solid...hope to do more then maintain.

That's about it....

This is now, in fact, my spot

I alone, can keep the world at bay